Can you listen to my headphones?
It’s funny, when we put on our headphones with our music blasting, we just listen and relate and vibe out. Sometimes when we speak out, it can conflict things depending how the way we say it, our tone, expression, it can really come out wrong. It applies so much in conversation with people, but why can’t some of us just listen? Maybe because more than half of us always want an answer, an opinion so we push it out of people and when we don’t like what they have to say, we rebel towards it. Emotions are a real weakness, if we didn’t feel hurt by things, offended, then would there really be that many problems in this world? We don’t have all the answers, but we do have all the questions in the world. All I’m saying is, if I’m the music and the headphones, can you please just listen?
Can you listen to my headphones?
Practice what you preach or F what you think.
“The silence is so loud.” What a quote huh? Silence can be so deadly when someone tries to attack you verbally and you just turn the other cheek, but not speaking about a situation can cause silence to drive you crazy as well. We all go through it, ‘silence’ is killer, it’s just about when and what we choose to do when it occurs. I don’t want to get into real detail about a current situation that’s going on right now, but if you’ve caught wind from it via Twitter then you probably already caught the gist of it.
See, I’m real big when it comes to preventing problems to get out of hand especially when I’m involved because the littlest thing can cause such big outbreaks that you look back and think ‘really?’ But above all, it’s when people who don’t know anything about the situation get involved and feel they have the right to attack when they’ve ONLY heard ONE SIDE to the story. There really is 3 sides to every story, but you’ll only hear two sides. The truth is always altered by emotions, point of views, and interpretations of certain people/situations.
This, is what caused me to speak out for once. I’m not saying what I have to say is the cold hard truth, but people have to realize problem aren’t between two people AND the world, but between the two who need to fix it.
I don’t know what I’m trying to accomplish by saying all this, all I know is silence can either drive you crazy and the other person crazy. Be wise with what you choose and who you tell when the silence is broken because when you’re really feeling like you’re getting even, you’re really just making things worse, and no, not for the other person, but yourself.
I love it.
Life isn’t about finding yourself, it’s about creating yourself.
Ah, the general statement you probably hear me stress over and over again; maybe it’s because it’s the constant battle within myself that I find so hard to overcome. Like, the fact I can’t stand the radio because it’s all nonsense to me. How can I appreciate music if there’s nothing meaningful coming from it? All I hear is bottle poppin, ass shakin, drug usin gibberish.. I’m not gonna lie, it’s super fun to vibe to in the car or at a function, but means nothing to me. I could easily do the same, but just doesn’t feel right and then you have the Lil Waynes, Big Seans, Meek Mills, and all these metaphor/punch line rappers that are your favorite FB statuses and tweets, but ain’t sayin nothin. Maybe they only cater to certain demographics and I’m not in it.. I’d never put myself higher than these artist because I respect the grind and success - but I do put myself in a higher standard when I’m creating music. I know, why should I if what I’m doin is working..I guess it’s just me tryna out-do me. I’m not a rapper, I don’t have punch lines for you, I don’t have metaphors and I don’t have money to splurge so I can’t speak on it.. I do have a strong passion for music, I struggle, I’m broke, I live life just like you.. I make music based on what’s real and what matters to me and hope that it is good enough. You’ll never catch me in a cypher.. I’ll get killed, obviously the rappers who have the most creative lines will amaze you, I’m a conceptual rapper, a story teller. I’m not saying anything is wrong with that, but it’s myself who puts me down. Maybe it’s me challenging me, maybe it’s me second guessing myself. My friends say I’m one of the illest freestylers they’ve heard, I just wish I felt the same. In the end, everyone seems to be a critic especially yourself. We all need to just listen and enjoy good music and stop putting ourselves and others to such high standards. We’ll always see flaws in anyone and anything, no one and nothing is perfect. Lets just vibe out to the positives.. I can’t change the world, but I can change me. Maybe ‘change’ isn’t the right word so I’m gonna say I’ll mature and grow. This isn’t just about music, but me as a person. All I have to say is.. I’m not a rapper, I’m a Hip Hop artist and my story is just beginning..
“Won’t Let You Fall”
(Written & Performed by JDrew& Lucho)
(Produced by Nick Rio)
“Directors Call presents Class Act” Mixtape
See, I ain’t perfect - and I’m gon make mistakes
They it’s never too late to say what you need to say
And now’s the time to say it, “I’m sorry for the pain”
Of neglectin you for me, just leavin you in the rain
I know it poured, and you felt constantly ignored
But you have to understand, I’ve given you my all
I don’t expect nothin back, but somethins gotta give
Us fighting back and forth does nothin to get this fixed
(No) We could have talked it out instead of bein stubborn
Just forgive and forget, we need love for one another
I don’t put it all on you, but hear my side too
We’re the Jream Team, no matter what I stand beside you
I won’t let you fall
I’ll be there to catch you
Got your back like your back was tattooed
I won’t let go (no, no, no, no)
I won’t let you fall
So hold onto me
Girl, I got you even if you’re far from me
As far as I can see, you’d do the same for me
I won’t let you fall
Dear mom, we got one hell of a life
Never agreed with your decisions, but now it’s alright
I know how much you care even when you never showed it
Thank you for the love, it always keeps me focused (Yeah)
But I can’t lie, these scars won’t seem to heal
I’m still tryna get passed the lies that you’d instill
But forget it, we’re good - Just hope you’re here to stay
I love you mom, so please don’t ever go away (No)
And dad, I’m sorry if I let you down
All I ever wanted was to make you proud
And to my little bros, I’m sorry that I’m far
Just don’t ever forget that we have that special bond
Ma and Pa, hope you’re healthy and stayin strong
I know I never visit, I could at least give you a call
But all in all, I love my fam as dysfunctional as we can be
Ain’t nobody perfect, but ya’ll perfect for me
Now to my girl, who’s held me so together
Thank you for lovin me and makin me much better (Yeah)
Just don’t give up, I know I can be a pain
But regardless of our fights, I’ll still love you the same
To Kaos and Nicole, the siblings I never had
Never pushed me to the side when I needed you so bad
And I can’t forget my fans, the reason I keep succeedin
Believe in yaself as much as me, it’s y’all that I believe in
See I, can go on forever - So many got my back
In this industry of users, I’ve met some loyal cats
I got some issues with trust, always gettin double crossed
So if you’re still in my life, I thank you so much
I swear I cherish and am thankful, for every single one of you
I’m no angel, but I swear that God sent you
To impact me in a way, that all I can say
Anytime and any day, just know, that I
I woke up today with the craziest feeling in my stomach.. an emotional vibe in my chest leading me to realize a huge time in my life. It’s nothing bad and that’s the crazy thing about it, for once, everything in my life is alright and going great.. I can’t begin to explain how happy I am with everything and everyone in my life at this point - it’s almost bringing tears to my eyes.. I’m truly blessed and all I can really say is thank you God.
I think most people get upset with me because with or without them, they KNOW I’m gonna be just fine.